Saturday, August 13, 2005

Smoking...

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I have an admission to make. I haven't written the Cognoscenti on my own. I've had the help of some very special friends to assist me with some of the more challenging and complicated arguments that I've been trying to make. Those friends... those dear, dear pals of mine... those comrades in difficult moments... are soon to be a thing of the past.

Yes, I have decided to say goodbye... to my beloved cigarettes.

Sadly, my long, rambling Cognoscenti posts will no longer be written in the comfort of a tobacco cloud circling around my head. No longer will I be able to turn to that euphoric buzz of addiction satiation in the most trying contemplative moments. Oh, such good times... I already feel nostalgic.

I'm 26 and I started smoking again two years ago, after previously quiting two years before that. It's ironic that California's strict smoking restrictions did nothing to combat my bad habit. Unfortunately, my propensity for volatile Los Angelean females offset those disincentives with a large dose of stress and anxiety.

So to cut a long story short I've really decided to quit. I'm saying so here in the hope that it will make me take this attempt more seriously. I want to make the most of my life, and whatever time I am afforded, and smoking on into my thirties doesn't exactly serve those sincere intentions. I'll put a little icon in the sidebar to chart my progress so anyone reading this can verbally abuse me if I let myself down.

That would be helpful :).

12 comments:

NYgirl said...

Graham, I can't tell you how happy I am to hear this :-) Great as they may be, cigaretts are one of the most direct roads to cancer. I know it's not going to be easy, but it is worth the effort.

Hope you won't hesitate to give a howl if there's any way to help.

Alice: In Wonderland or Not said...

Glad to hear it.

Sophia said...

Hey, Graham!

Congratulations to you! I am behind you and support you 100 percent. :)

Mark Daniels said...

I wish you well...Smoking is a great thing to quit!

Graham said...

Thanks for all the support. It's much appreciated. It's been a rough 24 hours, but I've got this far, which is better than I ever could have done without making the resolution on my blog. Right now it's just a question of impulse control... resisting the urge which sneaks up at difficult moments. I feel very confident though, which is odd, considering how difficult I've found this in the past.

Early days.

Graham said...

It is getting harder :(

jenn said...

good luck with not smoking. you can do it!

Marcel said...

Good luck with not smoking, if you get through it, it will be the best thing that you will have done for your body!

Anonymous said...

With regards to you giving up smoking....
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!

Graham said...

Thanks for all the support guys. It really helps me when I get the impulse to light up.

Universal Soldier said...

Good luck - hope you keep it going. I've cut down until I only have one when I'm drinking. My smoking is down massively but people at work stare when I start drinking at 9 in the morning.

Graham said...

If anyone has any suggestions for things to fill all the empty spaces cigarettes leave behind... ideally not involving food as I've already eaten wayyy too much today. Johan Cruyff, a famous soccer player used to suck on lolipops, but that's not really my style, lol.

Gonna try and do some reading. For some reason being at the comp makes it particularly hard.